During these past few days, I get so emotional thinking that life is always moving on. At times, I would look so penetrating in my childhood photos thinking that indeed life is really very short. Having been born to godly parents, I have the best foundation that parents can give to their child. My values and wisdom had brought me to become more chaste and with sheer pureness I have always inspired people through my personality. I am not perfect though at times I purchase myself to selfishness and self-pity but still I am grateful for the righteousness that my parents have always taught me.
I never had any affluence growing up, in short we are fortunately part of a struggling poor Filipino family. I cant always believe how our living are swayed by most of so many generous relatives, family friends, or even people who is utterly unknown to exist. Looking back, I question how help can be so unpredictable and how God seems to be knowing everything. I look for an answer an answer that is profound and no one could ever understand yet I arrived at a very plain and simple
response that the love of God to his children is so genuine and pure.
For most of my life, I have always believed that I am a person who is a great fascinator of many things. I look not for an ordinary but for an extraordinary, I would often think that there is always a possible another answer other than the right answer itself. I look for special, I want something more, I adore emotions, pure silence, serenity, and I am strong.
For 21 long years, I am so certain of my strongness in many things given for example my confidence towards any circumstances, my intelligence, optimism and my integrity had prepared me to be tough and resilient. I am strong but I am wounded, wounded because I fear of so many things which even I, myself is not sure of. Now that I am or so many of us are facing another chapter of our lives, my 21 years of being had prepared me the way I am today. I am not suicidal nor under emotional stress but sometimes it pays to stop everything and look at yourself and have some silence pondering what your life has been and what still lies ahead.
After all of this, I had to make a choice and face another chapter of my life. Only a true, faithful and earnest prayer is my comfort or everybody's who believes in God. As a lot of BSN4Ds-07 are making great choices and facing their own adversities, let us all value what we have learned from each other
and make the best of what we are right now and transition ourselves to become absolutely great people to our blissful remaining years in this world. I want you to know that I value all of you.
"I think it is desirable for us to look well to our words when we call upon the Lord. He hears us in secret, and can reward us openly. We do not have to cry unto him with many words. We do not have to weary him with long prayers. What we do need, and what we should do for our own good is to go before him often, to witness unto him that we remember him and that we are willing to take upon his name, keep his commandments, work righteousness; and that we desire his Spirit to help us. We should call upon him from time to time, from day to day; and, in fact, every moment of our lives we should live so that the desires of our hearts will be a prayer unto God for righteousness, for truth, and for pure happiness." --R.M. Celis, RN.--
